After an e-mail discussion about the best times/days for H to come, he let me know that he would not come on Monday (since he already had some plans that day) but would come on Tuesday morning, Wednesday morning, and Friday morning.
When I came home on Tuesday, he had left a note that indicated that he did not bring any boxes, did not have a vehicle large enough to accommodate much anyway, and had used most of his time in the house that morning to "assess." He had found 3 empty boxes here, so he did pack some things in those. He left those packed boxes in his closet.
On Wednesday, I arrived home to find that he had packed a few more things (and had brought some empty boxes from the liquor store). I found a note on top of the 13 boxes he left in my dining room that said he had run out of time, would get the boxes later, and was sorry for leaving them. The 3 boxes were still in his closet.
On Friday, I came home and could tell immediately that he had not been here. All boxes still remained, and nothing else had been packed.
I don't know what to think. I thought he would have jumped at the chance to get his things and go. However, from this point forward, I will make no assumptions or guesses about what he thinks or feels, and I have made the decision to not read into anything he says or does. I have gotten nowhere doing those things thus far, and I need to spend that energy on other things (like looking at magazines, putting some seeds in one of my flowerbeds, choosing paint for the kitchen, spending quality time with Boxer dog, and playing with my new makeup).
The only thing I can control is myself! [I wonder when I won't have to actually say these words to myself to make myself feel better?]
