Diamond, Its ok to still feel the pain. Don't beat yourself up thinking you should be past it. This takes time. You have some very tender wounds and something like you saw today will rip them wide open again.
I wish there was something I could do to help with your pain but I can't. No one can. Only thing you can do is feel it and continue to work through the issues that are causing it. Funny as it sounds pain is a good thing as it is part of the healing process.
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