James, well the latest is I found a webpage where W has smeared me and advised no women to date me.
It is some real nasty slander about me. The post was created 4-22 which is the day she lost custody of DD, so I can understand the anger. But it is just so childish to me, because i would never resort to that.
I am missing her alot, and DD. I have been hanging with friends and keeping up on my diet, lost 5 lbs already.
I am sort of a rollercoaster internally, some days It feels ill be fine, and then other times I miss her and my daughter that it hurts real bad.
I know i must keep trudging forward but the no-contact is starting to really take its toll. I just hope she is missing me a bit, but after all that has happened who knows, she could be facebook searching for someone new I fear. I dunno.
Well, i really guess time is all I have, and to prepare for court when that day comes. Lawyer is filing motion, my sister is stepping up for my DD, and my WAW is gonna be mad, because she does not agree.
It could be a final nail in the coffin, but sometimes I wonder if it is for the best.
Im not ugly, and well once i get down in weight, I should be able to date again. But when your 36 and have kids, yes I have kid from prev relationship, bars and date sites seem like such a hassle.
I just honestly want to repair what I have and make it work. Funny thing is so many ppl are saying Im stupid for trying, but the ppl that do believe it could have a chance say that she will need serious therapy.
Well im confused, but try and remain hopeful.
Let me know if you have any thoughts, or perhaps you can get some other board users to check my thread for thoughts as well.
Thank you James for offering support.
M 36 W 29 Together 2 1/2 years married 14 months Daughter 15 months Bomb 4/22/10 Separated since 4/25/10 OM 6/10/10 Hopeful, but moving on
man your W is really losing it man. she is out of control. you're going to have to be the calm one and just ignore all of the things she is doing. that website is NOT going to help your cps case.
your w is seemingly going to blame everything on you even though she violated the order and is acting totally bonkers right now.
I'm telling you man. focus on you and your D right now. you need to let W calm down and get some help.
waw 36 (spiritual covenant and common law marriage)me 32 together 13 mos. Bomb dropped march 2nd 2010
children SD (8) S (10) S (3) need help from anyone with my sitch
