MINDFULL - It won't be long now... Parallel Paths

[mindfull]

Not so good am... H gets home in the wee hours. This am we are getting ready to go to S13's track meet. H comes in the kitchen, having a fit. S13 got his foot cleated in his soccer ame this week. He saw the club trainer, who at first thought broken, then a sprain. Told him to try and do light exercise, and see how it feels in a few days. Well, S13 was scheduled to run the 1600, 400 and 4x400 this am. He tells H he tried to run a little bit this am, and it is killing him. He will probably have to scratch his events (and he's really sad...).


H is LIVID that he is awake and ready to go, without need this am. He is a complete jackass in the kitchen to me, and I just ignore him. Well, that's making him madder, and he finally says... "You guys go about YOUR day. Do what YOU want, and Ill do what I want.". I tell him that its a fine idea.

I finish getting ready, ignoring... I hear him getting slightly nasty w/the boys. I go to make sure all is okay, and S10 is starting to cry because Dad won't go to his soccer game. S13 has now adopted a dejected looking expression and body language.

I just tell the boys something like, "Boys, I'm glad to go have fun. I missed you during the week, and let's just go kick butt. "

H leaves a bunch of cash on the kitchen counter, and leaves yelling...

So, I'm showing the boys today that we can have fun and be okay on our own. Also, just trying to not be an emotional presence for them, but a strong one.

So, H txtx me during meet. I ignore. Tells me he has fired the handyman and the cleaning staff, and that he is on a roll. (Ignore). Then, tells me not to worry about him. He's just doing things and buying things for us so we can go about our lives w/out his opresence. (Ignore).

We are at s10's game now. H says he won't be home for a long while. At this point, I hurt for my boys terribly, but am glad for the peace