Ugh...cloudy day...not really the sun is shining but I am cloudy...
It is my little Sydney's birthday, she turns four today. I called her this morning at MIL's as she spent the night. They were out looking at chickens. So Dan just had her call me back.
I don't know what happened, I was singing "Happy Birthday" to her and halfway through I started crying...I finished the song and she didn't seem to notice. As soon as I was done she said, "Bye" and handed the phone to her dad.
She is busy with her cousins as she should be, but it hurts me to know I am not with her on her birthday and she doesn't seem to mind...I don't want her to be sad and yet I am sad...I need to go out in the fresh air and cheer up...
