W was asleep when I got home last night (she works really early on Saturday morning). I cleaned some and then finally got into my books. Read through the second LL before I had to get to bed. Things in that book really make alot of sense. I am excited to read the rest and find out more about how I communicate love and how my W does as well.
This morning I got up really early (another 180 for me) and did a top to bottom cleaning of the bedroom. My wife is a clean freak (when she wants to be) so I have always thought that my best efforts to clean were never good enough. I am realizing that I was doing all that stuff half-a$$ed and I was never really trying very hard. The last few days I have been focusing on being only occupied with what I am doing right then. Lessening the distractions is helping focus on doing the best job I can do. Even if that isn't quite as good as she always does it, I want to be confident that I genuinely was the best I could have done.
I understand the importance of getting into DR and I will do that ASAP.
I am really focusing on my PMA today. My days at work can be long and exhausting and it's easy to let my mind race and that never ends well.
I am off tomorrow and so is she. I'm worried about how our interaction will be the first day off together since she brought up D. I plan on going to the pub in the morning to watch a soccer game but I may be back before she is even awake. Tomorrow is also mothers day. My mom died almost 12 years ago to the day. I admit I am still really screwed up about the whole thing and I have a tendency to become pretty unbearable to be around this time of year. I am really trying to focus on not bringing the vibe in the house down any further than it has come already.
Any suggestions for a day off together? Ignore each other? Be gone? Help!
