Yes, I agree....you are stuck. You have been here for 2 1/2 years and bounced all over the board with no more than two pages per thread....before you'd start another one and usually before waiting for people to reply. The majority of the posts I've seen have been the emails/letters you've sent your H. One thread had no explanation, no introduction or anything, just started out with you talking to him....
You said you kept a journal or diary but I wonder if that is what you are mostly using this board to do. Are you really looking for advice... or sympathy?
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
