Full Immersion - Getting Acclimated

[Daybreak]

Well it's a weekend and it is supposed to be hotter than normal. I need to take care of the yard at the old house so I had better do that today rather than tomorrow.

And today marks #19. W had quit recognizing that day several years ago and although I had some cards set aside in case she decided to initiate something (I had done the initiating the first three years after the bomb dropped), they just lay fallow in the drawer...

A couple of weeks back I was going through some old papers and found a card that W had given me back in 2003 saying that she had never forgiven me for my problems and wasn't sure where things were going to go. And it did take me quite a while to forgive myself and climb out of the emotional pit I was in...

But instead of today being a recognition of my M, I am choosing to acknowledge my family. My parents and sisters who have stood by me throughout all of this even though then live scattered about the East Coast. My two wonderful kids who seem to be doing very well considering the move from the old house. S is having a classmate over this afternoon for a couple of hours so regardless of which roof we live under, life does go on.

It also helps that I have a good circle of friends who have supported me through this as well. And this site from which I drawn inspiration and hope that a brighter future is beginning to open up...