CW - I don't mind you being cheeky...we have to keep our sense of humor...I bet that he'll be better today...what is your bet?
SA - I too hope that he is just navigating through the mess in his head.
D -I never get sick on Amusement Park rollercoasters, but MLC is not amusing and it makes me really nauseous lol.
Forever & Libby - you girls seem to be going through the same bull....
Thank you my friends for trying to cheer me up. I'm little better now, however I'm questioning things.
I went over the last 3 weeks in my head (that's when he said that he wants to R). The day he announced it he was all eager to "work on us", said that the affair is over, that he will read books, go to Marriage counseling...was talking about the future...said all the right things. And that was the only time he was so open about it.
The week after he started to reconnect with D and was helping me when I was sick, came to the house just to spend time with me, but no more "future" or "lets work on it" talk.
And in the last two weeks he went deep into depression and withdrew again. Doesn't see daughter...doesn't seek to spend any alone time with me accept work related or house duties...comes and moves the lawn, cleans the pool etc.
Doesn't talk about himself, what he is going through. Mostly is polite and friendly but sometimes cold, short and unpleasant....like today.
I feel like I'm in a limbo...I have no idea what he is thinking...where things stand in his head
It almost seems that things got worst again...is he back in contact with OW? Makes me wonder. The first time he came back he was like that, the first couple of weeks he would try to get closer to me and then all of a sudden he became cold and detached - I didn't know at the time, but that's when he started communicating with OW again. Should I ask him?
I'm hoping that that's not the case, that he is just depressed and in withdrawal, dealing with his issues and processing. No room for me yet....
I'm seeing him today...we will see what that will bring.
Last edited by Mila; 05/01/1010:39 AM.
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