Yes, in previous times this would be quite painful. He hasn't touched me in months and yes, all my attempts, all hugs, kisses, etc, are met with rejection.
Detachment is a wonderful thing, no?!
I am a "thinker" by nature, and I have really been thinking about all the positives that come with detachment--it's made me feel SO much more free in what I can say and do. The rejection I am going through would have killed me before. Now I am more of an "outside observer" to my own sitch, which I LOVE.
I have been writing down scripts that will state what I need in a "no pressure" way. Control is SO EASY to convey and my H will NOT be controlled. I see clearly I have never done it correctly.
I think there may be a bit of a "take it or leave it" stand in my future, which is fine. My plan is to see if this will get better without going back to the C in the 6 months that I originally thought it would take (so that would be mid-June). But if I have to go back to the C and have him help me with my plan, that's fine too.
My C is the one that told me to keep flirting, touching as much as possible, etc and see if I can't get him to come around (his second LL is physical touch). And he said if I do this consistently, if it doesn't get to him, well, honestly, I'll have peace about not staying with this man. I see that too--very clearly.
