Thanks sandi2, really great advice. I will just try and apply what I learn in LL to our sitch and see how it plays out.
It will also be nice to find out how I really operate as well, sometimes I don't understand alot of the reasons I do things until I can see them spelled out for me.
My W and I don't talk at all during the day, by phone or text. I know this is a major point of the game plan and I have done pretty well the last few days in sticking to it. It's difficult to not contact her but I can totally see how desperate and pathetic I must look to her. Not to be stereotypical but physically most would not expect me to be as sensitive as I am but I am a pretty fragile person. All of this with my R is really taking it's toll. I have felt better today because I am trying to have a PMA all the time and not be unrealisticly optimistic but still holding out hope.
I did focus on my appearence today (haircut, shave new clothes) I feel better about myself even if she doesn't notice.
Tonight I'm planning on doing more work around the house and then reading after she goes to bed.
