NM, point completely taken about working on myself and the parts of the R that I hindered. I think that. . . well, I wonder if I am too detached. I don't know. I want to talk to the therapist and see what she thinks!
Oh, and I think it impacted the R because there were problems that I just ignored. I thought they weren't that bad, everybody has that kind of thing. But I didn't really look into it to find out. I just "dismissed" issues and moved on. And that is something that I know that I have to change, whether I get back with WH or get a new husband. I have to notice issues and then really give them the time they need.
Sorry my last post didn't make it clear that was his email response! I was in such a hurry.
Anyway, yeah, BD, it's good that he wrote back, I guess. I am not really thinking about it. The second time I read it is right now when I looked at my post! My past self read every line he wrote and analyzed everything. This, I'm not.
I was thinking about why I decided to write him during testing today. I figured out that I just wanted to make sure that I wasn't holding him back from contacting me. He follows me so much. That's what bugs me a little. He still waits for me to lead. And I did right here. That's another thing that I would want to work on if we were together. "But I didn't know if I should tell you."-- boo hoo.
Wow, the baby just stuck her foot out to the side and my arm touched it. Very weird. Very weird. It still weirds me out that someone's in there!
Anyways.
BD, about your second paragraph, yeah I don't know. I don't know if I'm really DBing right now. For those who really are committed to doing it, it does have to be hard to know sometimes!
Ok, going to catch up on other threads!
me, 30 WH, 29 D born June 2010 M: July 2001 Bomb/S: 1/14/10 Done with it all.
