Is this piecing?

[flowmom]

I broke my darkness, must go back to it. Help keep me on track people!

Hope, going dark is basic self care for you right now. You've proven to yourself over and over again that when you engage with H it results in verbal abuse. Your desire to take of yourself must grow to be larger than your compulsion to fix this M. It's soooo hard to break patterns like this, and it sucks that you have to deal with his horrible behaviour. But you're making a choice to do what you believe is right for your S and you have to make sure that you're caring for yourself in the place you're in.

(((H4L))) easy to write, hard to do I know.