I am feeling very depressed. i called h and told him i saw information about pregancy test kit on his computer. i feel like i can't take anymore.
It’s a lot to take. So let’s look at something else. What can you take? What is happening that you can handle? Consider one thing at a time. It might be that each little thing on its own is manageable, but being hit with so many things simultaneously has you floundering.
It is time that you do some things for yourself. After you read the posts on your thread, leave the computer and do a few things. I will start a list of ideas, choose all, several or only a few.
Take a hot bath—with potpourri, oils or smelling salts if possible. OR if you have a hottub, go soak.
You jog regularly. Find the runner’s high.
Go for a walk—preferably a nature walk in a quiet setting with greenery.
Sit. Meditate. Set a timer for at least 10-15 minutes and turn off the phone. Find a comfortable pillow to sit on—or lie down flat. Use this time to listen to God. Practice deliberate breathing. Focus on your body.
Yoga class.
Journal—by hand.
Art projects. Paint, beading, collage; home art projects and redecorating. Make a memory box. Make a box for your prayers. Sculpt something.
Some of those take planning, but not all.
So what can you handle? You are depressed. Well, can you handle feeling just a little Blue? Maybe that would be okay? What do you do when you feel Blue? Do you dismiss your feelings, embrace your feelings or feel sorry for yourself and become worse? Let’s try embracing. It’s okay to feel sad. It’s okay to feel upset and even angry. Allow yourself to feel everything God brings—do that in your meditation.
This is your time. It is for you and God. Think of it as a Sabbath. No phone calls, emails, texts… There is no one else.
Do you drink tea? Chamomile? If so, make yourself a cup of tea—avoid caffeine.
After you have taken your Sabbath, you may call a friend. Call someone who will listen without criticizing. Someone who is good for a Hug.
We’re going to take this gradually, okay? We are breaking down the big chunks into more manageable bites. Every day, take a Sabbath of at least 15 minutes, longer is okay—a few hours is okay, but at least 15 minutes.
I have to go out of town for a funeral and will be gone for a few days. But everyone else is here for you too. Just check in, post an update and listen to the feedback and get your fill up of Hugs. I will check on you when I get back.
You are going to take care of yourself, one little bit at a time.
