Game Point

[tryingtilDorR]

I have been communicating with OW now all week and she is interested in getting together and seems interested in being more than 'friends' immediately. She lives in the next town over so it is hard to get together without some planning. I am finding it invigorating to meet someone new, but at the same time I am leery about someone that is this interested in me this fast. I was mainly looking for friendship and not much more for now so we'll see.

So it seems like there is a chicken-and-egg situation here. I felt detached enough to meet someone new, but then again meeting someone new allows me to detach even more it seems. Even if it doesn't end up being a romantic relationship, the connection with someone else that I find intriguing makes me not want to be around W. I guess I am starting to see what WAW was going through when she was having an EA?

I think W has been meeting with OM at her new place. She still hasn't moved or expressed any concrete plan to do so, but it is definitely in the works.

She has been quiet but irritable and seems to have a short temper. I was out of town Sun-Wed and she and I didn't have any communication, but all day Sunday she was acting strange and going off to private places to send text messages. She had to leave before I left for the airport and didn't say a word (not that I cared, but usually she at least says bye-have a good trip, etc). It is just something I noted after she was acting strange during the day.

When I got home I noticed that on Sunday night she was looking up "side effects of Xanax" on the computer. OM had given her Xanax a long time ago and I had proven that she had taken them on occasion and in particular one night when she was trying to meet him about a year ago (it was the day I proved the EA - I got a bonus and proved that she was trying to meet him as well that evening).

I am wondering if she and OM hooked up Sunday and she was taking them to 'relax'. I have heard that these pills can be addicting. OM has access to them for whatever reason - I think he uses other drugs too like painkillers quite liberally.

It will be nice when she is out of the house for me but as I stated earlier not for my kids, and probably not for her - I think she is taking step along a very dark path for herself and so do others close to her.