Oh, I hope I didn't sound like I was upset or hurt! I'm really not & I do appreciate all the advice on here!! We are here for each other!!
I'm so far along from where I was a year ago, maybe even 6 months ago, but it doesn't mean I don't have down times. Like I said before, I guess I always thought he would be back but now I don't feel like he will. If he ever does, I think he is going to be in such a state of depression or I don't know what that I will not need that in my life. I'm working on moving on!
My dog & I are making it fine, of course I get depressed sometimes but I'm kind of getting used to making my own decisions about something I want to do in the house. For a while there if I did something I would think to myself how amazed my ex would be if he saw what I did or knew some of the things I have done, never in a million years would I have thought I could fix a leaky faucet or a running toilet! But I did! Also trimming those darn hedges!!! 90 ft long, 3 ft. wide & 7 ft. tall, but I did it! All my neighbors say I have the yard looking better than it did before he left. My dad even helped me put some siding on the outside of a bay window & we put indoor outdoor carpet on my back porch ourselves. I rented a pressure washer last year & got the glue off that nasty carpet that was on my front porch, the guy at the place where I rented it knew I had no clue what I was doing, but I did it! I guess I have to brag on myself a little bit, I have tackled quite a bit & I'm proud, I never thought I could do some of these things.
Ok, now speaking of all this outside work, I have to go mow the yard before it storms here again this weekend.
I hope everyone on here knows how much this site & all your comments & advice has helped me!!! I couldn't have gotten thru some of this mess without you!!! Believe me!!!!!
