On a slightly positive note (I guess) I did manage to just go to sleep last night while W was out. Usually I stay up and pace, and usually we get into some kind of thing when she gets home. Ok, so we still did the "thing" part after she woke me up (noticed the rings were off and called her on it) but the important part for me was that I was able to let go enough to just go to bed and not stress about something I could not control. Probably shocked her that she texted me a few times and I didn't answer... almost as shocking as the fact that I didn't text her at all myself. One step. Many more to go (and a side trip into the gray).
