Flo... yes I have been reading that book at the suggestion of someone here and it has helped me with some of my 180's.

June... I think you are right that the guilt is a major factor in what my H is struggling with now. I can't imagine how that must weigh on him. I do have compassion for him for that.

Aver... you are right. Those tools really are helping me to cope with his depression.

Thanks to a chat with a good friend last night I am shifting my perspective on the "not feeling anything for me" thing. I can let go of that for now. There are so many other positives in his actions and choices. That is what I need to focus on right now.

We had some additional financial stress yesterday that was the last thing we needed. The good news is that my H has stepped up and is taking the lead on solving the issue. This is huge progress. The not so good news is that he is having difficulty finding a solution. So we are both feeling very stressed today. I am working on letting it go and leaving it in his hands. Because I have been handling it all for so long, that is hard to do! But, I am doing it.

Just gotta keep breathing today. We will find a way through this.