Taking care of next steps:

X withdrew his half of the $ from the joint account.
I just changed the insurance to come out of my account.

Have to do the same with the mortgage and line of credit.

Then...I will close the joint account. It will be painful. It is painful.

But that will be one more step done.

I feel like a solider under siege: just grimly taking care of each nasty chore, marching on, doing what has to be done. The mechanical tasks of taking apart an emotional thing.

And because of this darn THERAPY thing and working on feeling my FEELINGS thing, I can't go into usual "Aver protective block out all feelings" mode. I have to FEEL all this crap.

Now, ain't that a b$$h??

Sigh.