I am realizing that I act like an ass when my W goes out, like an ass when she gets home and an ass at random other times. I realize that I CANNOT control my W and thus need to just focus on controlling myself. Boundaries are fine but I just need to stop focusing on everything external and REALLY look hard at myself. I am not to blame but I am playing a part. That needs to stop.
I am focusing way too much in trying to figure everything else out but ME.
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