That's kinda what I think, NM. I don't plan on having a relationship start from this. I hope to change the mood.
That said, it is true that I have some expectations. PH, that's so interesting about controlling what he says with C! I suppose it's true, really. . .
I do definitely agree that I'm doing this to feel better. And. . . because I'm bored? I'm not technically bored because I'm working so much, but I just feel restless, I guess.
I don't think I'm ignoring the possibility of OW. It just doesn't matter. I guess I'm not playing this game to win. I'm just playing somewhat haphazardly. I don't actually think the outcome will be any different-- I'll just be more. . . obsessive if I actually "play to win". This is getting philosophical and abstract, which I like of course.
Last, I definitely read what Puppy wrote, NM. Good argument. . . just not sure how. . . I think the word is "obsessive". . . I want to be about it all. (How obsessive am I now on a scale of 1-10? Probably a 5. I feel like snooping and then trying to bust an A and being so tactical puts me up to an 8 or 9!)
Please break this argument apart, etc etc. It's fun. Don't ya think? I'm being serious! Plus, it can be really interesting to hear other perspectives. I never thought of myself as controlling, but that has got to be a little bit true with the therapy stuff!
It just seems that there are such contradictory theories to win back the WAS and at the end of the day, I just want to be happy.
Plus, it can be really interesting to hear other perspectives. I never thought of myself as controlling, but that has got to be a little bit true with the therapy stuff! 
