Positive Moments... The Sequel

[K4D]

Goodfight,

I was just friendly towards my W and didn't put any pressure on her. I gave her space and eventually now and then I would tell her she is welcomed to join us if I was going to take my girls to a movie or something. When she would show up on Friday nights to pick up the girls we would talk about the girls and then it would lead into other things and then before we knew it, we were hungry and we would all end up going out to dinner.

It just happened.

Now that being said, I blew it about a week and a half ago when I sent W a text saying "Thinking about you, hope you are having a great day". I decided to test the waters as things seemed to be getting better. That evening at D12's performance, after it was over and W and D12 were walking away I said " I love yall" as I turned and walked to my car.

Big mistake? Maybe. But I felt like testing the waters to see if we had made any progress. Nope, we haven't. She has avoided me since. Ok, so we are no further along then we were 6 months ago.

That is ok though. At least I know where we stand. I'm not fooling myself thinking we are getting closer than what we actually are.

So I don't really hear from W until midnight last night when I sign on to IM. I had deleted her, but apparently not blocked her. So while I couldn't see her, she could still see me. She immediately IM's me.

W: You there?
K: ?
W: How is D8 doing?
K: Fine
W: She was up in the middle of the night for an hour and a half last night not feeling well.
K: Ok.
W: Ok, goodnight.

That was the end of the conversation. I didn't reply back to the good night.

Today I pick up my girls and I am driving down the road waiting to turn. Low and behold, here comes W getting ready to turn in. I look down the road and ignore her and don't look at her. I'm sure she noticed but I didn't look to see. I turned onto the road and drove on to take my girls out to dinner.

So it is back to the place where we were 6 months ago possibly because I decided to test the waters a bit.

I went swimming laps again tonight. Tomorrow my W gets my girls back and I'm sure at some point tomorrow or over the weekend, she will want to come over and get there stuff for the week again. I haven't decided yet how I will handle that or whether or not I will even decide to be here when she does.

So again, I don't have much advice to offer you. I am winging it myself.

Kevin