It has been a long week. Work has been crazy for me. A coworker of mine went out on disability so I am doing two jobs now...which I don't mind at all but I am EXHAUSTED.

My refinance is in process..I should be getting a call for the appraisal within the next day or so. Things are moving along.

H contacted me on Sunday but I didn't respond. I emailed him yesterday because I got a bill in the mail for him that was overdue. That started a long chain of emails back and forth. H won't accept the appraisal if it is lower than what he wants. He doesn't understand that the appraisal is what it is. It doesn't matter what the house will be worth in two years from now. I am not going to pay him more for the house than what it is worth. It is just so frustrating dealing with him...escape is so very tempting.

H called last night and was five minutes from my house and wanted to drop off some stuff. I told him I was leaving and he wanted me to wait. I didnt want to wait..he told me to wait...I gave in. I soooo didn't want to see him. I feel totally nothing for him right now. He was baiting me...I remained completely unemotional and detached. He baited me some more. I never gave in. He talks in circles about the house and splitting stuff and the appraisal. It drives me crazy.

I feel NOTHING for him right now. After going to IC tonight..I feel a little bit better. My H was/is a narcissist. My IC- who met him several times...feels strongly about this. I am so relieved to be out of this situation..well at least one foot is out the door.

The new guy I met is terrific. He is 7 years older than I am..not as handsome as some of my past relationships..but I absolutely adore him and don't care one bit. He has me in tears laughing all of the time. He treats me like I am the best thing in the world. He has made me realize what I have been missing for so long.

I don't know what is going to happen with this but I am enjoying every moment of it. He is taking me to a horse show this Saturday and I am really looking forward to it.

I will write more tomorrow..I won't be such a stranger...I just feel like I could sleep for 20 years. I don't know if everything has finally caught up to me..but I am just out of steam. My IC even commented on how exhausted I look. I need z's in a bad way. More tomorrow.