Thank you all for stopping in! It's nice to see friends again.
Since I've been here so long I've seen many people drop off the boards and I wonder how their life turned out. I didn't want to leave big question marks hanging around!
By no means do I have my H figured out, or know how to handle the future. Deep inside I feel excited about what we have ahead of us, yet I feel a flatness about all of it too. I really do think my life had a good chance of being easier and on a path I would be comfortable with had H truly left. I still feel some anger about the past and then anxiety about what's next and how to manage what's ahead. Mostly for now I have to remember to just let it happen.
It's odd when we share stories with folks, we have to go back over 6 years ago to find the good times to talk about.
Last night H spent rearranging the basement and putting some of his equipment there to do some of his jobs. We talked about how to make it nicer and and fix it up for him.
Recently we hosted a bus load of 4H kids to our place and H boasted about my accomplishments and shared the spotlight with me. That's rare from H!
There is still a lot missing from our M, and just because I had another birthday doesn't mean I can't still dream like a kid and want a fairytale! lol
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
