he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

so now he is going away tomorrow until sun. told me that on monday we will pick which night works for us. it is normal for us to wait until monday to figure out our schedule for the week but i was pissed anyway. i wanted to know now, i wanted time set aside for me now. i flip on him,and he takes it from me.

i flip i think because i didnt flip enough in the beginning of the demise with h. i was too quiet, too much a doormat. and i dont want to be one again. i may like him, may wait around alittle more than most, but im not doing it quietly.

i waited enough in my life. but i really really like this guy.

perhaps next week something will get resolved. however, if our plans do not materialize, if he cancels, i am finished with this whole situation. and i think this time he knows it.