It is okay to have good thoughts about your H. I am sure you always will have them too because M's are not all bad all the time. It is going to take time to get over him. You are just starting the process of a D. I am sure your emotions will be all over the place as they have been leading up to your decision. It is a process, and I think letting the thoughts come good or bad would be healthy to move forward for you.
You know what I am saying I am sure.
Keep doing the best you can.
You have lots of friends hoping you nothing but the best.
ME-41 W-33 M-8 D-8 S-4 D 5/17/2010 www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1961097#Post1961097