Man, you've got some great advice. I do think my issues are ones that I know to be true of myself. Things I really desire to change regardless.
I don't think she has an OM, although she is probably closer than she has ever been to doing that. These are issues that have been a problem for some time and not just new occurances. I really think it is a "he's just a broken record and will never change" situation.
Granted I didn't act like I should have and it probably seems really "convient" that I have discovered these things in the 11th hour of our marriage. I'm sure she thinks I'm just trying to put a bandaid on the issue (which I am guilty of before) but I've gotten a taste of life without her and the ILYBINILWY speech, that will snap you out of your own selfishness and really made me see things in a whole new light. Man, Im so worried and afraid that she won't even be willin to see my changes but I guess that's the issue. I put myself in this position and now I have nothing but hope to cling to. I told her were I stand and I'm going home from work tonight and am going to try and focus on the things she has always asked of me (help around the house, taking care of myself and our dogs etc) hopefully over time she will notice how focused I am.
Puppy, thanks so much for taking time to respond. I am in a complete and utter tailspin and I don. Have anyone to express these feelings to, thanks for listening.
