Thanks puppy, It's tough to keep my cool in the face of all this finality and dispair. I have been doing alot of soul searching and trying to determine if I really thnk I can be a better husband and I always come back to wanting to be that better man. Over the last few years I have become so stressed/depressed, angry, bitter and defensive. I recognize that and I don't want anyof those traits. She has put up with my crap for a long time and I know it seems rediculous to think she would let me in again but I can't stop holding out hope no matter how much she says, point blank, "it's over".
