still separated, in limbo, still hopeful

[newmama]

Thank you again, ladies. It does offer me comfort to hear that he might miss me and that "it ain't over til it's over."

With boyfriend relationships, I have always moved on and not stayed friends. I think in almost all situations, they looked me up after but I wasn't interested. That's why I always tell people to not stay friends, to date someone else, to not look back. Of course it seemed different to me with having a new baby and a marriage and WH's affair so I didn't follow my own advice.
But he is making it easier for me to now do it.

There is something else- I am trying to figure out how to act when I do see him-don't get me wrong. It's like this: When I was at work, I had to act a certain way and still do my job,even though I was feeling like crap. It was not appropriate or helpful for me to act the way I was feeling. SOOO that is what I mean with WH now.

Opinions?? I know not to show him I am sad.