Got 2 texts from WAW. She is visiting SD8 with paternal grandmother over 100 miles away and will be back this weekend.
*head explodes*
I understand she wants to see SD8. I want to as well. but why sign away the freaking rights and then keep hopping on greyhound for visits instead of going to I.C. getting your antidepressants and not applying for jobs or following up with the ones you did apply for.
She has totally lost it.
You ask for me to do your hair for jobs then you go out of town?
She's not gonna make it. I hate to admit it but she's not. SHe's going to have to hit total rock bottom and end up in a shelter before she realizes she's going about this the wrong way.
I understand you wanting to come here and vent, go ahead but even that after a while that (the venting) will have to stop.
You have to realize you are venting about things that are not in your control.
You are frustrated because IF you were HER, you would do things differently but YOU aren't HER. You can't control what she does and you have to stop using your logic with regards to your WAW, you have to stop worrying about what she does and you have to allow yourself peace in your life and you will achieve that when you finally listen to what we're saying and let go of the need to control her life and what she does with it.
You are right, she will only realize the full impact of her decisions when she hits rock bottom, much like you did. It's called hitting "threshold" and you can't control when you hit that point, that solid bottom that won't let you go any further down because that is rock bottom. At that point, you'll either stay there for the rest of your life or you'll finally realize that your life is worth more than the sum of your current experiences and you'll start to do things to enable you to rise above your problems and get back to standing squarely on both feet again with your shoulders held high, you'll start to feel good about yourself (and you still don't, trust me, you're not there yet), you'll start to respect yourself, you will smile at pretty much everything and you'll ask yourself how you could waste so much time feeling like $hit everyday when you could have been feeling like this. Your confidence and self-esteem will raise up to a respectable level.
I can give you all the advice in the world but if you're not going to put some of it to use, you will continue drowning in a sea of several hundred pages on your thread.
I hope you realize and respect and thank CG for the effort she puts into your thread/situation, you have the invaluable perspective of a woman, something the guys can't provide you with. Listen to her!
