Luv, it is damn hard. To me the legal process and just the thought of it feels like a ton of brick on me.
But, with each passing day you gain a little bit of strength. I can totally relate to your interrupted sleep and weird dreams (some bad, some good - which are just as bad because you wake up and the reality hits).
Just try to be with some friends or even your kids they're a bit older and may help support you even if just by hanging out with you.
When is he supposed to be back? how do you feel about facing him? Sorry if it's too much to think right now but something you'll need to. Other than that just take one day at a time i.e. have a 'survival plan' for today...then tomorrow when tomorrow comes and so on.
Hang in there!!
Me: 35|WAW: 38|D: 6yo | http://tinyurl.com/2dxx7m6 Feb 2006, left, came back in two weeks Aug 2006, left again Apr 2007, filed for divorce Dec 2007, reunited Mar 2010, moved out, filed again
I have been following along. Taking the D step had to be emotionally draining. I can appreciate all the feelings and emotions you are going through.
As each day passes I get one day closer to filing myself. I have a personal timeline that I am following unless things drastically change on his end.
With that said, I am not sure how I will react when that day is here. Will I be anxious? Sad? Angry that it has come to this? Feeling like a burdon has been lifted? Relief? Who's to know until I actually walk in those shoes.
Regardless of the emomtions, I will know that it is the right decision for me. It is important that you remember that in your sitch as well.
I am praying for you.
The sun will shine in your world again and in time the love will flow too.
(((Luv)))
Me & H: 33 yrs S: 4 & 6 D: 2 M: 9 yrs ILYBNILWY: 8/09 SEPARATED: 9/09 The Beginning
Feelings all of us LBS's share and wonder about: ^^^^^^^^^^^
"As each day passes I get one day closer to filing myself. I have a personal timeline that I am following unless things drastically change on his end.
With that said, I am not sure how I will react when that day is here. Will I be anxious? Sad? Angry that it has come to this? Feeling like a burden has been lifted? Relief? Who's to know until I actually walk in those shoes."
We each have our own threshold. We each will feel a variety of the same emotions. To file for a D ourselves means we are done. Done with the lies and deceit and ready to be whole and happy again. ((Luv))
I hope you are doing okay. I saw that you posted you served your H with D. I know that was not an easy choice for you I am sure. You made the decision that you felt was best for you and your kids.
I am sure you are going through a lot of emotions. I hope you find your piece as soon as possible.
I wish I had been here more this week to support you more.
(((luv)))
ME-41 W-33 M-8 D-8 S-4 D 5/17/2010 www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1961097#Post1961097
Me: 35|WAW: 38|D: 6yo | http://tinyurl.com/2dxx7m6 Feb 2006, left, came back in two weeks Aug 2006, left again Apr 2007, filed for divorce Dec 2007, reunited Mar 2010, moved out, filed again
Luv - Just catching up... I'm in St. Louis now. Gosh, I wish it could have been me that helped you yesterday. It would have been one small reward in all of this. A pic in my brain of the look on his face...
You know I just adore you. HUGS And, we will meet soon!!!
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
