The light at the end of the tunnel

[kjensen]

Met with H tonight at Starbuck's..He wanted to talk about custody schedules, asset division...the discussion went ok mostl. H was still reactive a bit and is stickly solidly to the fact that I'm hurting him deeply by doing as my lawyer strongly recommends and getting his income evaluated. He agrees he's underpaid. But he sees that I supported him for years being underpaid, but now I am saying he should be making more...and that hurts him.

I think he expects a 50/50 split of our "stuff"... has a spreadsheet of all the stuff so we could check off if I want it, he wants it, its divided or to be determined....

I said I'd look at it and think about things and we could meet again to discuss. I told him that I never wanted this divorce and got a bit teary(DAMN!)...just in case he's deluded himself on that fact like so many others..

He gave me a hug goodbye and said I smelled good. Woohoo!

Sad to have to be where I am. I really wish it was just over! This is so !@#^&*(bleeping) stressful!

I imagine I'll have a larger/longer mortgage, a lot less retirement and less disposable income coming my way! Not to mention less furniture and the worst- my children only half the time...Oh and I get the fun surprise of running into the ex-OW periodically to remind me of the rejection and betrayal I endured last year.. Oh What fun! Just can't wait!

Ok I'm done with my pity party now...