When H left, i knew immediately it was a boy... didnt know if it was wishful thinking... for weeks i pondered over which was easier or would i have liked more... thought which would H want... of course he always said boy before he left, but also said he would love a girl just the same. When we did find out, i was completely overjoyed and the look on H's face was priceless. I hoped that maybe... just maybe a boy would make him see that I need a constant male role model to be with us at home! Not so much...
I could not be happier, and I too have heard you fall in love immediately no matter what. My little guy is truly a blessing... and I know H feels the same way... for him at least. but i did have moments when i thought... Oh wow! No girl? No pink? No tutus? No little girlfriend? Will it be harder if I am alone to raise him? So i think everyone, whether happily married or separated like us, have thoughts about it... doesnt mean we love them any less! I saw the same thing happen with relatives and their babies...
So instead I have vowed to be a soccer mom! And will learn to love dinosaurs, ball, toy trucks and dirt! hahaha! H promises (fingers crossed) to be active in his life when it comes to sports, and guy things... and in every other aspect...
