Separated in different countries... please help!

[fullmoon]

Thank you for your replies R2C and TTA...!!
I have been trying to clear my mind and I think it's that when things were calm we got on quite well, and he was very sweet.

He lived at his mum's until he left for overseas at 34. It was pretty much like he was allowed to do anything he liked at home, no house rules, and I just replaced his mum.
I thought I just need to be patient with him... but it felt like hitting against the wall, he avoided conflicts at all cost(his parents argued constantly his whole life).
With these issues and being in a foreign country I was really stressed out--- the anger inside me built up so much that I lashed out at him often and he'd tell me that he is not my emotional punching bag.

Whenever we talk over the phone I get really angry. I read DR, decided to go dark. We haven't talked for over a month.

Over a week ago I sent an email telling him what I look forward to do in the near future-- without him.
He replied saying 'it's really refreshing to hear about all these nice things', and that he'll 'always have love for me regardless of what I may think'

A few days ago I found out that I need to have a surgery to remove a polyp, and that I might have to wait for a few months to have it done.
Our boxes are arriving at MIL's next month... rang her yesterday to ask if it's ok to keep my stuff there for a while. I don't think she was too happy to hear from me.

I'm starting to wonder maybe our M is not really worth it to fight for.