I am going through my wishwash stage again, it doesnt feel as hopeful as it did in the begining

Now I just cant believe H would choose..
“feeling good”" and “friends” that didnt have any life expections , over me and my kids lives .

What selfishness exsits… and yes you want to hurt them because you cant believe they would not feel remorse for hurting you and your whole family future for their selfish acts.

Thats the kind of get back you want… I dont know if I will ever see it (his remorse)…but right now I sure as hell dont want him to be “happy"

He sold the boat and is now going to get his new camero.

He is going on vacation for a week . said he had a choice of 5 different places..because one of his friends (that he just had a reunion with) he owns a huge manufact company and has several rental places.. I said I would love to do that (own rental property) he thought I ment go on vacation though...and said that I should get some rich friends...what a jerk!

Im just sitting back watching...thats all I can do.

He tried to call me over for a "call" then said nevermind...because I decided not to react or respond.
I m not going to be treated like that...(even though it kind of difficult (have been with him for 16yrs)..so have to keep reminding myself its just a "bcall" and thats just not cool to think of me like that.


SO... I refocused...
He is paying for gym membership and we are still married so I will be going to the gym in the town Im in right now.

He paid up for a tan membership for me before this..and I never got to go cause of this crude....So Im going.

I figured im not going to waste my time thinking about what he is doing..going to do my own thing.
It will feel strange though not being able to have my kids when I go to the gym...we always went together.

I will have to remember what my oldest son said to me.
"Dad is being selfish and I think its best you just leave him alone, you cant talk any sense into him. This is coming from a guy mom..."
I had to kind of laugh at him and love him... He is right.


Last edited by jt2007; 04/29/10 02:09 AM.
M 36/ H 40
4 children
HMLC= 5/2009
sign d 3/2010 (to be final 6/10)
m16yrs/17yrs in Sept

resource for me:
http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1964990&page=1