I am on such a rollercoaster. Yesterday I went from sad to angry and back again. I'm so wishy washy about whether to sign papers. It's killing me that Fri will make 6 weeks and I haven't talked to him about my thoughts and feelings except to say that I can't talk to him right now. That was Fri. Now I want to talk but I'm so scared that it'll push him further and/or start a fight. I've always been the one to fix the problems (emotional, things breaking, responsibilities, everything) while he's the "lazy one" who expects that if you ignore anything you don't want to deal with, it'll fix itself. This is my life, not the mower! How am I supposed to say that I'm doing everything I can to fix my marriage while acting like him and not doing anything except praying about it?
