Re. the job situation, I was told by a special ed/support teacher I work with today, that the rumor all over her school (3rd-5th grade building) is that I am going to be replacing the 4th grade special ed/support person....she said at a meeting they were told the position was being filled 'from within'...and my name came up...so who knows?
I am now 90% sure they will keep me but just divide my duties into 2 jobs, ELL/ESL and something else...
I have considered other career fields but none of them are as ideal for a mom as teaching. I used to work for Sylvan Learning Center, once as Director of Education and once as Director of Assessment/Curriculum...loved the job completely but hated the hours. Half the days 8-6, the other half though 10-8 as they had to be open for kids after school hours. Plus every other Saturday morning for 4 hours...not kid friendly! So until my kids are grown and graduated I plan to stick with teaching...all my weekends and holidays free plus 2 months in the summer. Can't beat that!
The talk is still scheduled but he must be freaking out. We were discussing his angry emails at my counselor's tonight and she said he is clearly so uncomfortable and anxiety ridden that he has to tell the kids, since it is basically HIS choices that brought us here, so he is lashing out.
As I am leaving the office, my phone beeps new text msg. From Dan:
I really don't like you.
I really don't like me.
I showed it to her and she was amused. She said he is freaking out that his back is against the wall now...I didn't respond.
I will post back after it is over. If Nathan melts down I will stay there until he falls asleep so it may be after 10...not sure...wish me luck!
If he starts a fight, maybe he can avoid telling the kids. Or, maybe he thinks he can make you feel as bad as he does because he knows he's the one who screwed up.
I agree that this is all about him...his kids think the world of him, and now maybe he thinks they'll think less of him too. It's a part of his victim mentality and speaks to his poor opinion of himself.
He's like a little kid who's been caught doing something naughty who then acts out and refuses to accept responsibility because they're embarrassed/afraid/trying to save face.
Just remember, it has nothing to do with you and everything to do with him. Don't own his crazy; lord knows we all have enough of our own crazy to deal with that we don't need to take on anyone else's.
SD
Me: 40 H: 43 H had EA from 2/06-9/06 Bomb 5/06 Piecing since 9/2006 3/2008: Boundary setting 7/2009: Boundary crossing~dropped my own bomb. 8/2010: Marriage finally on track!
So I replied back to his pizza hut message, not the two about not liking me.
I just said let me know the plan of when I should come over since they were eating.
Replies:
1)I have no f ing plan I have cried, yelled, screamed and pissed off just about everyone I work with today my boss included The kids are exhausted and sick
2)I'm leaving.........town that is....I can't handle any more...I'm certain to break
3)Nathan is very concerned about me and its not good as I sit here crying in the restaurant.....Not good
