Saving a relationship that maybe cannot be saved

[knightinneed]

Update, W emailed me and ask that I not pursue trying to get DD out of foster care before our court date on the 20th. She said that this was going to " rock the boat " and she did not want D hopping from home to home.

I think the mentality is " if she cannot have her daughter, then no one in my family or her family can. " She claims to have met the foster family and that they live near where she is staying which I do not know for sure.

I had been talking to her mom before I made the decision to have my ATTY file this motion, because I felt if her W's brother and Wife could step in that it would seem like i am not against her and also I would trust them.

She seems to think that 100 percent certain she will regain custody on the 20th, which she may, but to leave our DD 1 yr old in foster care any longer then she needs to be hurts me to my core.

All in all I do wish for reunification of the Family, but I do not understand her thinking, it could only be from the HAZE that I caused everything from her getting arrested to CPS getting involved. To her everything she does is right and everyone else is wrong.

My Lawyer is pursuing this hard now.

I also had my 1st IC session today, and explained the situation, he seems like he may be able to help me work through issues with anger and conflict resolution which I do admit I need help with.

So many times I could have walked I suppose during arguments but I fed into the flames and argued back to the point of no return. Never again, I will resolve to better myself be a better Father and focus on whats good.

Reading posts from Puppy, Gucci, have really helped. I think sometimes I was just to wishy washy, lazy, indecisive with W, and she made that a big concern along with weight gain and not being active enough.

In the end I do hope for reconcilliation and to have my family back, but I guess I have to endure the Court enforced darkness and getting my DD out of foster care for now.

If anyone can offer any guidance or prayer or help to my sitch I would certainly appreciate it.