Ok now this is purely hypothetical, but there is a good possibility of H getting a job away from home! He will be away at work mon-fri and commute home for the weekend.
Great you all say! Yep I have had him home with me for precisely three months and now this possibility arises and it will be for ten months! and No we cant afford to turn it down.
All my wobbles are trying to get up and annoy me, so far Im not letting them! Im strong enough to cope with this and as long as I have plenty of money, I have my darling baby girls, (horse & cat) and I have friends and S (21) and things I can be doing to GAL.
H has already said we can do this, we will have to work things out and work at them. All I have said so far is if he is working all week and both of need time to persue our hobbies its going to be very hard. He said well maybe he'd have to let go some of his go, but I answered I didnt want him back working to live only and him going back to where he was when he left last august.
All my feelings of being left again are getting severely rattled, but one important thing is for this to work I cant go back to being needy and clingy while he is away, I totally get that is an addeded stress on the H's when they already have enough on their plate.
Obviously I will be able to fly up to see him as well, yes its about an hour plus flying time away. IM just so scared our very fragile R is going to take a hammering even though personally Im much better equipped to deal with this than ever before.
Come on oh wise ones give me your best words of wisdom I sure need them!
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Once lost but now found and happily married again!
