Piano as the other guys here have said you are human, agood decent and beautiful human being who has been let down by the person you trusted most.You will do things that are not part of the 'advice'.
Would you really want him back?There is a good article on the www.midlifecrisismarraigeadvocate.com thats talks above love and hate and its very soul searching.Here's the link..
http://www.midlifecrisismarriageadvocate.com/Midlife-Crisis-blog.html
Hope it helps.


ME 44
H 45
D 14
D 20
M 22 YEARS
TOGETHER 28YEARS
Bomb Drop 14th July 09
Seperated-living with OW 10mths(14/07/09)
MLC 3years

Silence wasn't golden in this marriage; it was deadly," Dr. Robin L. Smith