Naej, Things have to change. I do fear living the rest of my days like this. I do believe I deserve better.
I still have hope for some reason. I see potential for change. I see changes in her. I have to see what potential there is for change. I think she's reaching out for me, in her own way.
I could not afford to move out. It seems like D would have to be a partnership.
I have to take some responsibility for the mess we're in. She is living in a sexually starved marriage. We have been roommates for a long time. The more conservative approaches have not worked.
I am going to find a partner who treats me with love and respect. We'll see if my W is capable of being that person.
I've come to realize that patience in and of itself does not solve problems. It merely buys you the time to decide on choosing the right strategy and deciding the right time to implement it. I think the time is ripe for presence and boundaries to be effective. We'll see if I'm right, or will be disappointed.
You words are helpful.
CL
CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."
