Time for darkness.... (thread number 3)ears open

[james217]

James, your post is much too long and very confusing.

In a few simple phrases please help me understand. You have two biological children from two different women and you do not have any form of custody or visitation with either of your children. And you have a minor step son that you have no legal parental rights to that is now in foster care as your common law W signed her parental rights away.

It is very hard to understand how you can be so focused on your WAW when you have two children who are not with you or their mother. Please stop and think about that.

Your W needs help and years of C'ing. The abortion, the abuse, the inability to care for herself, her refusal to get proper medical care or C'ing and her decision to sign her child away. It always seems to be somebody else's fault.. her exH, her mom, her family, her employer, the police, the court system or the doctors.

It is too bad she is sad but she has made poor choice after poor choice for years now. If she is so easily influenced by others that is a problem within itself.

You don't like my suggestion so I am not sure what else to say. Walk away from this woman until she has had a long stretch of IC and can prove to you she will stop making such destructive choices for herself and her children. Walk away from this woman until she has a proven track record of care with all her medical issues. Walk away from this woman so you can get YOUR children back and create a better life for them. After really understanding all of your situation I am sort of stunned you are still so focused on your W.

I don't see any good that can come of this without your W getting intense C'ing for issues that nobody on this board is equipped to handle. And honestly, I can't believe you have spent so much time on your W the past 6 weeks when you have two biological children out there without their mom or dad.

I guess I am stumped on what else to tell you.

the mothers are there they just do a poor job. I have joint custody of s3. She just ignores the court order and the police and courts don't enforce it so i'm going to hire an attorney. That's why I have been trying to get healthy and I'm delaying my surgery as long as I can so I can get out of training and then have it and start getting well.

s10? when I was on probation I had a choice. Go to my custody battle for s10 or miss my probation appointment and risk going back to jail. I chose the latter. The courts defaulted against me and gave my s10 rights to my parents. It's never really been a major issue to see him until she began acting weird over the past 3 years of his life. So i'm trying to get that reversed. Hence the court cases because my parents are too sick to deal with her and custody so my family myself and waw and his god parents rarely see him and he is miserable.

I have an 8 year old step daughter by WAW.

She has finally started admitting things as well. That for a long long time she has made alot of mistakes and needs to deal with these issues head on. She's been texting and telling me how she's really trying to get help and that she knows she has alot of things to work on which is a major reason why she left. I think she has been seeeing an I.C.

It's really really hard to talk about the kids. It's hurt like shyt. That's why I don't talk about them much on here.

All I know is that WAW is having major problems. I talked to our cps I.C. and she feels as though all of the things she's held inside just finally broke her. She had all 3 kids ripped from her just like me and that's what really set her off. I know how she feels. It's hard as heck for me not to break down and cry every waking minute. I do it alot.

s10 has begged to come and live with me and WAW. This is very hard for me. Words cannot express the pain I carry in my heart for our 3 children and my WAW who is also my best friend. I see everyone just hurting. So I get up as sick as I am and try to work. To not quit to keep fighting for all of us and praying to God.

When I sleep I see the kids faces. From time to time I day dream and hear their voices and things we used to do together.

All I can do is take it one step at a time. Work and get healthy. Fight for the kids. try to be there from a distance for WAW and maybe cheer her up on occassion and bring a little joy into her heart.

Her and s3 were freaking inseperable. Everyone thinks he's her bioson. Both of the boys love her to death. They miss us both and their sister. s10 asked about her the other day.

talking about the kids just reopens this wound. You best believe I'm working towards to help the boys and my daughter.

The thing is the cps case for SD8 is tied to the boys too. So it really freaking sucks.

Alot of times when I'm not on here i'm just staring into space or at the walls thinking about the children and on the phone talking to lawyers and my current attorney and how I"m going to get them back.

The state of texas is really ajoke when it comes to custody enforcement. If it doesn't involve money then it can take a long long time to get things resolved.

It also doesn't help that s3's mother did some of the most ridiculous crap ever dumping s3 on me and waw on his bday this past summer telling me to keep him for a month (i had it documented) then showing up at my parents house with police right after my mother had surgery stating I kidnapped him. I had to go to the police station and prove me and waw innocence with emails and text messages i forwarded to my email and printed it. I tried to press charges on her and the police did absolutely nothing.

So all three of our kids are being held from us. I honestly think it's taking more of a toll on her than it is on me and I know how bad it's hurting me.

I honestly think that all 3 of our children are being used as pawns to get benefits money and government assistance from the state of texas. It angers me and hurts me. sighs.

I really don't want to talk about this anymore.