This morning was the initial autism assessment appt where the psychologist interviewed me. It went well, but I found out that the assessment is going to be more involved than I thought...4 more appts to go. I'm really nervous that they won't determine that he falls in the spectrum...then he won't be eligible for any funding or services .
Grandparents looked after children for 3 hours -- huge milestone. It went well and that was very encouraging.
This afternoon and evening were a parenting nightmare . It's been one of those days when I pour myself a glass of wine and feel totally traumatized by the day after the kids go to bed. Of course, irritatingly, the kids totally calmed down the second that H came home to help with bedtime.
Tonight I felt like, wow I am detached from H. CG will be happy to know that I don't even check his FB page any more! Someday we will be friends and it will be OK and we will be living separate lives. I still can't accept what this means for my kids, but I am letting go of my attachment to H. I love him, I miss him, I want to hug and kiss and touch him...but the reality is that it's over. I'm very grateful that he is not yanking me around and sending mixed messages...that is a huge grace that I have been granted compared to many LBS.
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
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