Maybe I didn't blow it?

[james217]

I think I realized today that I am not detached, at all. I was nervous and tense when we talked.

I am not getting a good vibe from what I have been doing.

She told me things like she only wants to see me because she we were together for a long time, and I'm all she knows. She told me she "likes" me and cares about me, but her feelings for me are "pretty much" gone. She also said "its just too late... I think".

She THINKS its to late, her feelings for me are PRETTY MUCH gone.

I found myself totally obsessing over those words... And I realized that I am hanging on every word she says just waiting and waiting and waiting to hear what I want to hear, and it isn't gonna happen.

I need to chill the hell out here. I need to frickin' get a hold of myself.

And I need to get through the zoo on Sunday, and camping after that without making a freakin' fool of myself and just making things worse.

I really need to get serious about this stuff here, or I'm just gonna end up miserable and defeated, which is basically how I felt for most of today and hated it.

just validate and reassure man. Give her some space. remember believe half of what you see.

she's very confused. You are too. THE ML probably did it man. All those different feelings.

don't push her. don't force her. just listen. If you feel the R talk is too much then change the subject to something light.

You'll be ok. Just breathe and take it easy.