just read your posts... sorry you are feeling here and there and everywhere...
I know we are supposed to have NC and 'fake it' and do 180s but your email to him was all heart. Dont be upset you sent it. Sometimes we need to do what feels right to us at that very moment, even if it is a setback... truth is we are human! and we have human reactions... and considering what H did to you, you writing a not so nice email is not the end of the world. Strange part is in my sitch, when i get to the point where i tell H he is toxic to my health or I will not have him around baby, i usually see that h starts to come around a bit. maybe doesnt work the same for everyone but that's how it seems to work for me... now it doesnt stay that way, just sometimes cracks H bit to become more human and empathic to my feelings.
Sorry, dont know if that makes sense. Sad his parents have been silent. I do not know them and am not picking up for them, but i will share with you my experience with my IL's. When i recieved the D papers, I called my MIL and FIL, and MIL laughed (yes a chuckle) and said what did you expect. I was sick, distraught, saddened, felt betrayed by her and family... I have not spoken or heard from her in 6 weeks... Last week they came over and she admitted that she was upset and shocked by the papres, and didnt know what to say, so she backed off and was silent. Now, you and i, and many of us here wish our IL's would pick up the phone and say I'm sorry, but really is it their apology to make? and if they cry with you on the phone, does it make the OW disappear out of your H's life? What im saying, i guess, is that you shouldnt assume they are not upset or shocked or ANGRY with their son for what he is doing.
On a GOOD baby note: Kudos to you for doing the natural birth! my sister did it a year ago... as for me... they can drug me! I am looking forward to meeting my little man and like NM said, I heard that by the time you go through labor, you are no longer shy about showing some skin! But its sounds like you are having fun planning for your little one.
Are you all set? Do you have diapers and everything ready to welcome the baby home? Do you have support or family around when the baby is born...
