Reconnecting - Do they know?

[old theotherhalf]

I just wish... even though... I still wish.

But the truth of the matter is H was drunk when he called and texted. Nothing from him sober for a very long time. Well a couple of attempts but not hard ones. So in reality, H could very much still be deep in MLC. Or he could really be done and just feeling sorry for himself because OW and him had broken up, even though he's the one that ended it.

I want to be strong. If there ever comes a day that XH does want to come back to me I don't want it to be easy for him. I want to know that he REALLY does love ME and only me. That he REALLY does want to spend the rest of his life with me. I want to know that he's not just coming back because that's all he has left.

But I have to be honest here and with myself. I miss my XH very much. And I love him as much today as 25 years ago. But I am different today and so is he.