You have said so much here. It's a lot to think about. i see what all of you are saying - at least to some extent. I understand how i should never expect forgiveness, that it is something that i need for me and myabe i am still being selfish in that respoect. I am still with OM so how can i expect him to forgive me. i get that.
I just have to keep going and working on me, definitely need IC to deal with all the emotions raging inside me(so much more than just relationship stuff going on in my life). Thank you all for your support, honesty and sharing. it is truly appreciated.
