I think you are right. Nowhere at the moment gives him peace or happiness.
He is starting to look at his childhood so I am sure his head is in turmoil as the fog lifts slightly. Lets hope he keeps coming forward and not run completely from dealing with the real issues.
H has been very quiet for 2 days now. No texts at all except one to S saying he had bought a tent!
The conversation with S via text sounded as if the teenager was out to play. It even confused S. They don't know about the children their father has invited on his journey.
He needs his space at the moment to move along his tunnel. It is 3 weeks since he was last quiet in his tunnel.
After making positive steps forward over the past 2-3 weeks H has been quiet for 3 days until today when we spoke on the phone.
He sounded more depressed, miserable and sad. The conversation didn't flow and was hard work. I closed the phone call.
Although his depression has never left he had seemed slighlty more happy. His depression is getting worse again particularly since he moved in with OW full time unless its a coincidence!
He will be coming tomorrow to see the children and have supper.
