Too Late For Us?

[mrbt]

Journal / Update.

Things have been calm lately. We spend time together. Either she stays at my place or I stay at hers. This morning she made a comment about dumping one of the two apartments.

I suggested keeping "our" original apartment (the one she lives in) and she said "What if I decide not to stay?" (meaning, she has not made a decision regarding the divorce). I told her it didn't really matter; she could stay or go. The last time we actually talked about the relationship, her plan was to wait until the end of May and then make a decision.

The wildcard in all this is her counseling. It really stirs things up for her. She wants me there for emotional support but then when things become too intense, she feels the need to run - run from the marriage, run from her problems.

I am not sure what to do from here. I think I should probably stay put for now but living under one roof is tempting. Sometimes I wonder if restoring some normalcy to our marriage might help move things in the right direction.