We all come here with the hope of saving our marriages, but ultimately ourselves. I'm glad I found this fourm because I would be a wreck with out it. If I'm still on the emotional rollercoaster it is a pretty booring, which is good. My highs arent super high and lows arent super low. I am doing good even with the out-come more than likely being D. I thought I could do this for years but I know I cannot. The damage has been done, i'm not saying it cannot be repaired but it isn't going to be me who takes those steps, I feel as though I have laid a foundation and she needs to be the first to lay down a brick. I'm a good man, and she will be missing out on a great life as a family. I hope with whatever the out-come being that she stops running and becomes a better person. I hope my journey helps me to become a better person and I feel as though I have taken the right direction since this all started. I'm full of knowledge that I wish I had 7 years ago. I can go on knowing that I will more than likely get remarried, who knows it could be to her.
My goal now is to focus on my future. I plan on going back to school in order to become a better artist, and make a living doing art. I will not file right now, if anything I will go for legal seperation. Talking to her though she has her mind set on not being married to me. lol, yet calls me a good man, and good father want to be divorced but is dating OM2 now. I dunno, I just can't care too much about it. She is doing what she feels is right.
I will post more later, I just want to thank all of you for your advice and encouragement. I really don't know if there is a set time line for DBing but mine didn't seem to last to long. Though I don't know what is going to happen.
Aces....
Last edited by Wildaces81; 04/27/1006:57 PM.
I like all this empty space because i can now type out things that are important.
Like: D7 S2 starting swimming lessons on 3/30
"Readily will I display the intestinal fortidue required to fight on..."
